I learned at a very young age
I have to hide to survive
I’ve become so good at it
It almost scares me
It takes not thinking about anything
When you’re around someone who could see
The tears of regret
That come from so many mistakes
I got tired of being perfect
A long time ago
Thought it might be easier
Doing everything I knew was wrong
My mistake was thinking that after that
I could do the right things again
I am a liar
To save myself
To keep you happy
Because no one can handle my truth
If you want me to I’ll start thinking again
Do what I used to and keep repeating my mistakes in my head
If you want to know everything I’ll try to tell you
But you won’t understand
And with each story I’ll come closer to something
That everyone will regret
I hear every word you say that hurts me
But not all of the others
And I repeat them too
Over and over
This is something only a bullet can cure
A razor can heal
And fire can cleanse of my sins
Because eventually you will have had enough
You will see what I really am
And you will hate me for it
I already do
Nothing and no one can save me
So I will lock myself up
Shut myself down
Until you no longer need me
And then I’ll end it
Problem Solved